What do we know?

Two months have about to accomplish in 2012. Days and nights are carried out swiftly and leaving me to give birth to multiple thoughts and feelings. After all, we are made up with these combination besides water being the high substance in us.

Although there are still endless to learn, I learned that I know more than before.  Knowing what , perhaps I rather not know.

I mentioned before that knowing is painful.

Yea, at times I wonder if know less, it could make my life a little easier , that I will march forward instead to entertain the 'knows'.

Like everyone else, I am looking forward to  rise in this recent new year. However, I fail to find the meaning to rise from my bed for the day and  I find myself to enter late to bed during the night, although fatigue reigns.

I believe each of us would have ask this all familiar question - Why are we here?

Life is surely not about waking up, meals, sending children to school, finding money to earn a living, dating, spending, watching and dying.

I am pining and longing for my past years.

When life is simple, innocent and pure

When there is no IPad, IPhone, internet,etc.

When the water and garden are still inviting

When quality is insisted rather quantity

When music and arts are dignified and posessing value

When birds are chirping in the air instead of honking and flames

When life is something I can call life.

I would trade my life right to get them back, if that is possible.

I know that we have to lose to gain and gain to lose.

I have just turned down a job opening based in a place where I wanted.

Ironic? Foolish?

I realise that happiness is far more important. The state of my heart is what I have to take care.

I realise that what I wanted in the past is slowly passing like the flying breeze.

The former could still be the better part.

And now, in months to come, where I will base, remains unknown.

I do not know if it would be a better place, although it is easy to love the lush, coast, leaves and breeze.

How would I settle in, what food I could cook and who will come to my aid?

Of all, a new environment to start all over again.

Or would things gonna be about the same.

This song has been ringing in my ears today for umpteenth times, never leaving me stale.

The beginning tempo carries the rhythm to start,

the middle hits the multiple cries and release of the heart,

the end is echoing a mystery, uncharted and bringing you to the waters you still have not sorted out.

(How I wish if could hear this by the lake behind my former lane of 20 + yrs)

Song:不要說話 / Bu Yao Shuo Hua/ Don't Speak

Artist:陳奕迅, Eason

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Lzb33Ku8k_w&feature=autoplay&list=PLF8681BC061F68FD6&lf=results_main&playnext=2